What Do You Hate?

i have 3 kids 3 older brothers n one parent still alive (hes 90) and i was totally alone.  no one even called me.  xmas is a fantasy for kids only.  i deliver newspapers in the early am and its scary and painful.  54 yrs old here.   i cried all day and took my decorations down at 9 pm.  i dont know why i even put them up.   I'm ok now but holidays are stupid as hell...

tl